ughh Im tired of this feeling in my throat » its become a daily thing now, I feel like there’s something stuck in my throat every fucking day. I feel like maybe I should get checked up but it might be stress related and I don’t want to go spend 5 hours in the clinic just so the doctor can tell me there’s nothing wrong with me. but it freaks me out, I think I should do something about it.



{Han China, Mughal India, Ottoman Turkey, Habsburg Hungary, Victorian Britain, Nazi Germany and the contemporary United States}

finallyyy finished it! *a scarier version of my older piece* :D

Because I felt I kind of wanted to portray the certain insanity and bloodthirstiness behind the idea of empire, and I thought of the nations looked a little placid in the first version. My headcanon- every nation kind of has this dark side, because all nations have a duality of nature- and this capability for insanity is a manifestation of all their ills, problems and those moments where they committed terrible wrongs in their history. And I drew America, because the underlying desire for power and self-interest at the heart of imperialism imo, is still alive today-even though it takes on different forms.

Quotes are from J.M Coetzee’s Waiting for the Barbarians (i will quote this book forever.)

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The rape thing seems to really bother you. Why? It has already been established that Jaimie is a monster. He attempted to murder a small child. Rape seems to be in character for someone so horrible despite the fact that it's not in the book. People don't change. Not when they are sociopaths willing to kill children



Here’s the thing: there’s no such thing as an 100% villain in Game of Thrones, particularly when it comes to POV characters. If you think that there are, then you clearly haven’t read the books. So much of the point of how the Lannister family is represented is to show a group that would traditionally be the villains - and what they do is often wrong, absolutely - and subvert your expectations of them. By giving you the perspective of the villain, you get to know them and their motivations, and you sympathize with them, or love them for the bad things that they do. No one is asking for a redemption arc for Jaime Lannister here (he’s still the man who threw Bran out of that window and, I believe, he always will be), but you can’t say that he’s a full out monster. Morality is not that black and white in Westeros. Just because he was willing to kill Bran doesn’t automatically mean that he is willing to do anything terrible in order to accomplish what he wants, including raping the one women he has ever loved.

And that’s just it - it’s NOT FUCKING IN CHARACTER. It’s not in character for any form of Jaime Lannister. It would be an abomination in the book, and it’s a pretty great example of character assassination in the show as well. Jaime doesn’t adhere to a black and white morality, that much is sure, but there is an understandable motivation behind each of his actions. He commits regicide to save the seven kingdoms from burning; he tries to kill Bran to protect his sister and her position as Queen. Yeah, that last one is selfish, but it makes sense. Now, explain to me, how does it make sense for him to rape Cersei? In every single way, Jaime has proven himself to be one of the only male characters that is firmly against rape. He states more than one that the only woman he has ever loved is Cersei, that he has “more honor” than Ned Stark because she is the only woman he has ever slept with. They say that IN THE SHOW!!!! It is extremely clear that he has never raped a girl before, nor has he even considered it!! Jaime Lannister IN THE SHOW threatened to kill Robert because he raped Cersei. Jaime Lannister IN THE FUCKING SHOW gets his hand cut off because he was mouthing off in order to prevent Brienne from being raped. IN THE SHOW he says that, if he were a woman, he would rather die than be raped. Funnily enough, he also says in the books that if he were a woman, he’d be Cersei. Interesting.

Here’s more book evidence, just in case you still are upholding your dumb opinion:

Jaime’s reaction to Rhaella being raped

The day he burned his mace-and-dagger Hand, Jaime and Jon Darry had stood at guard outside her bedchamber whilst the king took his pleasure. “You’re hurting me,” they had heard Rhaella cry through the oaken door. “You’re hurting me.” In some queer way, that had been worse than Lord Chelsted’s screaming. “We are sworn to protect her as well,” Jaime had finally been driven to say. “We are,” Darry allowed, “but not from him.”

This definitely seems like a dude who’s trying to rape his sister, the one woman he has ever loved, the one women he has always wanted to protect - right????? 

Jaime’s reaction to Pia’s rape

Someone had broken her nose and knocked out half her teeth. The girl fell at Jaime’s feet when she saw him, sobbing and clinging to his leg with hysterical strength till Strongboar pulled her off. “No one will hurt you now,” he told her, but that only made her sob the louder.

Remember how he hanged the man that had raped her, even though he screamed the entire time, even though he insisted that he had raped her a thousand times before? Still think that Jaime Lannister is a flat out monster, with no regard for any kind of morality??

What Jaime did to Bran was horrible and selfish, yes. But it was in character. I’m not saying that Jaime Lannister is a saint, nor do I want him to be. But raping his sister is not in character, either in the books or in the show - not if you’re actually paying attention to him and his development. Changing a consensual sex scene into a rape scene (she guided him into her body, please don’t try and say to me that it was rape in the books because it straight up wasn’t) seems to actually be playing into this idea of the redemption arc, which is horrifying to me, as he enacts some sort of vengeance or punishment on Cersei for her “evil” influence on him. That’s fucking terrible. But worse than that, the reason why this rape “seemed to really bother me,” as you put it, goes past that, and goes past even my general aversion to rape (amazing? I don’t want to watch rape?? who would have guessed). This scene is part of a larger pattern in Game of Thrones, created and perpetrated by David Beinoff and D.B. Weiss, in which women are subjected to unnecessary sexual violence in order to create shock value for the “most risque show on TV.” I’m tired of people telling me that I should expect this, because it’s an HBO show, or that I should be complicit with how often this is included. This is just another scene in a long line of scenes - of prostitutes being tortured by Joffrey, of Ros being created as a major character only to die horribly - that does nothing for world building, and does everything for raising ratings. Game of Thrones has to be edgy right? And what better way to be edgy than make a consensual sex scene, which was already pretty fucked up since it’s next to the body of their dead son, into a rape scene?? That’s disgusting. The idea that anyone shouldn’t be upset by this is DISGUSTING. We should all be in an outrage, beating down HBO’s door, because I am done with something that I love being made into something DISGUSTING AND MISOGYNISTIC AND TRIGGERING. I’m done with the excuses, I’m done with people trying to apologize it away, and I’m done with people talking around it. It’s there, it’s a problem, and we have to fucking deal with it - because this isn’t true to the original story, nor is it fair to the current audience. 

So yeah, I guess you could say I’m “bothered.” I guess you could say that.


i want….. to kiss…. jack gleeson

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This scene was actually when I went from feeling more or less neutral on Joan to actively disliking her.

Because wow, that was patronizing.

I loved that scene in Elementary.

1) Firstly, because it immediately deconstructs the “hero throws and breaks something in frustration” cliche (Sherlock throwing a glass slide in HoB, anyone?) it might even be seen as a parody of that cliche.

2) Secondly, because the dynamic is different between a man and a woman than it would be between two women or two men, the visual of a man smashing something in a temper in front of a woman can be taken as threatening or borderline abusive. Joan Watson immediately shows that she is not intimidated by Holmes’ behavior.

3) Lastly? One of the running themes of Elementary is the deconstruction of Sherlock Holmes as the solitary, antisocial genius, and his becoming a member of a community. Holmes’ gifts are given their due respect, but no one in Elementary plays the game of Because Sherlock Holmes is a Bloody Genius He Can Do Whatever He Wants So There. When Sherlock goes after Moriarty (“M”), Captain Gregson suspends him. When Sherlock doesn’t want to talk about his addiction, Alfredo says “You’ve got to get over yourself.” And when Sherlock behaves like a spoiled child, Joan tells him “Use your words.”

You see Joan patronizing Sherlock. I see a member of Sherlock’s community teaching him how to behave like an adult member of that community.

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unhand me

lower me gently to the floor, then unhand me

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when your computer insists that it has urgent updates


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Gods, I really wanted to draw this absolutely platonic hug between four boys without any romantic subtext, yeah. yeeeeeeeeeah……any at aaalllll…. .__.

I am sorry for Rei because he isn’t here but Rin being happy is in my priorities. *Rei will be hugging, too, but later*

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So I work at an ice cream store, and this girl walked in today and quietly asked me who the man behind the counter was. I responded that he was my manager. 

"Oh, he’s cute. What’s his name?"

"Justin, but fair warning, he plays for the, uh, other team."

"What team?"

And I swear to fucking god four people (including myself) yelled ‘WILDCATS’ so loud she spilled her drink.

And I thought he was gay 

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